Thursday, November 24, 2011 24.

The prompt for today is "Do you enjoy being alone? Would you rather be around other people?"

I love being alone. I love the solitude and the ability to do just what I want to do and not think about who else is there and what their needs are. I have always loved being alone and have even been somewhat of a loner at times. I am sure if I had not had children I would live up on a mountain somewhere and eke my existence out by the land.
I like being around other people sometimes, especially those of the super short variety. The ones that are between their 1st and 5th year of life. Those are some of my favorite people. I love their energy and innocence and their lack of concrete reasoning skills. I love that you can stand behind a three year old and be hidden from view. I love that you can put your hand over your face and be gone. I love things like when a friend's five year old wanted me to hide behind the couch with him, because obviously if he fits there, so do I. haha. I love that they love singing silly songs and dancing to silly songs and giggling and falling down. I love that you can break a graham cracker into four pieces and magically give them "more". haha. Toddlers and pre-schoolers are the best. I love their screaming temper tantrums (especially if they are not my very own toddlers) and I love their little voices when they are being earnest and I love to hear them laughing.
As far as being around other people...the non super short ones...yeah, it's ok some of the time. And other times it just makes me hate people. I'm not really a people friendly person, although my friends would often disagree with that. I am amazed at the stupidity of people and disgusted by how mean and awful they can be to one another. (not that I've never been stupid or mean)
I super enjoy being with my friends. But I like people in very small doses and in small groups or one on one. I am not comfortable around big parties or gatherings. I am not one to want to go spend time with a huge group of people even in someone else's home and even if I know most of the people at the gathering. I will go to things, but I'm usually very self conscious and even shy. I will usually focus on one or two people. Sometimes I get so self-conscious that I will sit there with an empty glass when I really want to refill it, but I am too nervous to actually get up and walk across the room. I'm not sure why that is. I know I lack confidence so I'm sure it's related to that. I will find a spot to sit and sometimes I will sit in that same spot the whole time I am at the gathering. That's just how I roll.
So, the short answer if that I truly enjoy being alone. I am dying to try out this empty nest thing I've heard so much about. And yet, I can really enjoy being around other people, too. There's no easy answer to this question and I'm starting to fall asleep. This is kind of a rambling blog, I guess! So goodnight and I'll see what I can come up with for tomorrow.


Sue said...

I like this blog! I feel the same way.

The Invisible Mo said...

Thanks, Sue. Glad I'm not alone in that!